Every now and then I come across something which to me just seems unfair. And I've decided to complain about it here. I realise this will do no good but at least I get to vent.
It has never crossed my mind that I could/should renegotiate a contract. But apparently this is quite a normal thing for people to do. I don't understand how this is fair. Why should some members of the same team/same company have a better deal because they had the knowledge/confidence to ask? If it's something the company agrees to why wouldn't it become applicable across the whole of the relevant sector of the company? This strikes me as some kind of discrimination towards people with differing personality types. I suffer from depression and although I apparently outwardly come across as confident and sociable, I have a total inability to judge my own worth. To me I will always just feel lucky that I got offered a job, petrified for the entire notice period that I'm serving at my previous employer that I will turn up at the new job only to be told they made a mistake and the contract I signed wasn't valid or some variation thereof. The idea of challenging my offer and trying to enhance it fills me with fear that they will turn round and rescind the offer. Stranding me in the current situation I am trying to escape for another indeterminate amount of time whilst persisting with the painful process that is job hunting. The swatting up for questions you only ever need to know the answer to in an interview, trying to figure out how to get the time off to attend without eating up all the holiday you have which you rightly intended to use for an actual break which you no doubt need and the failures which make you feel like there is no hope for you.
So here I am with not as high pay as I could have garnered and a longer notice period, stricter working hours and who knows what else, than my colleagues.
It shouldn't have to be like this should it?
